I’ve been trying to watch videos when I have free time, mostly to help inspire my writing, but also sometimes to just inspire my life, my health, or whatever it is I feel like I’m struggling with right then, which let’s be honest, could be any random thing. I’m not always a motivated person and inspiration is almost always helpful.
I’ve read, watched, and listened to many things that I use to inspire myself when I’m feeling less than motivated. I keep play lists, videos and articles, or books where I can go back to them when I need it. And you can trust me when I say- I go back to these things quite often. I know that motivation isn’t something that I as a person should be waiting for, no matter if it is the motivation to write or the motivation to go to the gym. Instead of waiting to be motivated, I just have to do it, but some days with my Depression or whatever else is going on in my head, a little bit of motivation helps.
I want to provide you with some of the things I use to motivate myself, or at least give me that little bit of pick up I need to get myself out of bed on the bad days.

On Writing by Stephen King
The Writer’s Devotional by Amy Peters
The Write Brain by Bonnie Neubauer
The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron
If You Want to Write by Barbara Ueland

(Sense8 Spoilers!)

Belle & Sebastian
Neutral Milk Hotel
Connor Oberst/ Bright Eyes
Fiona Apple
Joss Stone
Billy Bragg
Elvis Costello
Florence + the Machine
They Might Be Giants
Norah Jones
Elliot Smith

Walking (if I am able to get out of bed)
Writing Prompts
Cuddling with Idris (my dog)
Talking with my Husband

I’m sure there is so much more than this to list, and maybe I’ll add to it as I figure it all out, but I was just going off the top of my head about what things I could think of. I find the things that motivate me are often more inspiring than anything. I can’t stand motivational speakers, but I do love a good clip on a writing giving advice, or even just talking about writing. I love a good poem, that is a good way to get me up and running, if it is spoken word- even better.
Show me passion for whatever it is you are doing and I will feel it and want to be a part of it. I can’t help myself. I feed of passion I guess and sometimes I have difficulty making my own so I borrow others through their words (written or spoken) and their music. At least I know it doesn’t drain them when I borrow their passion, though I’m quite sure that while they are creating they are drained enough, I know I get that way.
I would love to know more about what others use to inspire or motivate themselves when they really need a little push. So please comment and links are always appreciated!

Why I Write

When I was young, say 3 or so, my Grandmother gave me the best gift that anyone has. In my 34 years on this Earth no gift has been greater or more important to me. My Grandmother taught me to read, and in turn write. She instilled in me a love of both. To this day I couldn’t be more thankful to her for that. It was from her that I learned my purpose in life. I knew that no matter what I did with my life, I would also be a writer. I may never be famous. I may never be able to buy her everything she ever wanted as a thanks, but I could still write and share with her my work when I was comfortable enough to share it with anyone. She was my first fan, and my first teacher. I will forever be in her debt for showing me the wonderful world of words.
There have been many people who have influenced my love of writing and reading since that time. School teachers who took interest in my love of books and would assign me extra reading or writing assignments to push me further. Sometimes they would just encourage me to submit my work for publication. As my family knows all too well, it didn’t always end up with the best outcome. (Think letter to the editor from 7th/8th grade.) No matter the outcome though, if it weren’t for these teachers encouraging me, I might have never made it through school with my love of books and writing still in tact. School can be hard for any child, but sometimes I wonder, from my experience, if it isn’t that much more difficult for creative children. The ones who love to read, write, draw, paint, build. They can really struggle through sitting down all day and being told they have to do one thing and one thing only. If you know a creative child, teen, or adult you must know how hard that is for them to do. So to these teachers, I am forever grateful for your guidance, kind words of encouragement, and tough love when it was required. I learned so much between extra assignments in middle school, to creative writing class, writing conferences, and just one on one critiques. You all helped me survive what was more than a difficult time for me. I am unsure if I would have ever graduated High School without you.
My Parents, though maybe not understanding what I wrote, still supported me no matter what. Did I need to be dropped off at school early on a Saturday to attend a conference? Sure, they did that. Writing was almost like playing a sport sometimes. I guess they just got lucky that it was only once or twice a year, instead of several days a week for months at a time over four years. (You’re welcome!)They also encouraged me to write, to read. They supported my addiction to paper. I guess as the Parents of a rebellious teen I’d support an addiction to books too, it could have been much worse. We fought, a lot, like most Parents and their Children, but no matter how much we did or didn’t fight with each other, they still supported this dream of mine. And that support was instrumental in me not giving up, even when things looked their darkest.
My Best Friends have been my rocks most of my life. The first when I was 13 or so and the second coming along around 17. I am lucky to have found the two of them. They were creative types like me, but not always in the same way. I could feed off their creativity and them off mine. They were support but in an unconventional way. I didn’t always need them to push me harder, instead I needed them to pull me out of my own darkness so I could focus. And that they did. My life would never have been the same without either of them being a part of it.
I’m sure there are so many others who supported me throughout the way, but these are the ones who are most important to me, and have always been at the back of my mind when I sit to write. I want to make sure when I write, that I’m doing something that would make them proud. I feel like these people helped me throughout my life to make sure that I’ve never given up on the dream of being a writer. Sure I’ve had periods of doubt, and even periods of years where I didn’t write at all. They were some of the worst years of my life and I’m glad they are over.
These people aren’t the reason I write, they are, however, the reasons I never gave up writing when I didn’t achieve my first goals (to be the youngest published novelist in the world), or when I didn’t achieve me second goals, third, fourth, and so on. They are the people who stood by me in my failures and told me how to use them to make my work better, to make my life better, and how to move forward with my dreams even when they didn’t go as planned. So no, they might not be the reason I write, but they are the reasons I’ve continued to write. That might be an even better thing to be.
The reason I write?
I don’t know if I could breathe if I were unable to write. I would be trapped in my mind with so many words to get out but no place to give them life. A life without writing, a life without reading, that is not a life I want to lead. I would be miserable and I’m already miserable enough (thanks Depression!). I write because I feel like if I don’t my fingers might fall off and my brain would turn to much out of not being used. My life couldn’t be my own without writing. Sure I can read and escape a bit, but without having my own writing in the mix I still have too much that needs to come out and be said.
Writing is what I’ve built my life around. I will probably continue to do it until the day I die. Published or not. Famous or not. I will keep going because that is who I am. It is who I want to be, and who I have always wanted to be.

Books- I’ll show you mine if you show me yours!

I’ve spent a lot of time in the bookstore lately. I find it therapeutic- something about being around rows of books it just makes me feel better. I generally assume that most people feel the same way that I do about books and bookstores, but I guess maybe that isn’t the case? I don’t know really, you’ll have to fill me in!
The problem with spending so much time at the bookstore is that I also end up buying more books. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love books and I love buying books. However, I don’t always have the room and/or money for more books. Not to mention at this point my To Read list is so backed up I’m not sure I’ll ever complete it. I have made a list of the physical books that I own that I haven’t read yet (or most of them) and I am going to try to finish them before the end of the year, but this won’t start until after I’ve finished a few books I have digital that I already planned to read before moving on to anything else.
I won’t stop buying books in physical or digital format any time soon. This is something that I’m very much aware of. You can’t just tell a book addict to stop getting books. That won’t ever happen. Maybe I’ll never read them all, that is fine. They will hopefully be passed on some day to someone who will read them. That is what is important right?
I know this post is quite short, and I’m sorry. I’ve got some fun neck pain going on today and I really just don’t feel like sitting up and writing. I’m hoping that with tomorrow’s new month will come a new me, one that is more motivated to get things done. The most I can do is hope at this point.
I’m working on getting a routine in place for myself between my medication, writing, working out, reading and work I’ve got to figure out how to fit it all in. Would love to get gaming back into my life too, maybe even some Anime binge watching! Oh to dream!
Anyway, as promised, I’ll show you my books, but you better show me yours! (Sorry, not going to try to list all the digital ones)

A Short Post about Authors….

This feels like a filler post. Maybe it is. Maybe I’m just trying to figure out what kind of stuff I want to put on here. I would love for it to be a mixture of all the things that I love, which right now isn’t much. Blame that on grief. I clearly remember all the things I used to love, I guess I should start there.
So the point of this post was to share with you Authors that I think you should read and/or follow. I’m not really sure where to start with this list. I mean do I even bother listing all of my favorite authors? Do I separate by genre? How many is too many? I don’t know where to stop, and damn sure have no idea when I should stop! The problem with asking someone who is an avid reader to list a bunch of authors to read is that you are opening a whole can of worms that you really aren’t ready for.
With that said, I’m going to take the dangerous path and assume that I don’t need to list any of the classics, or new classics. I feel like it should go without saying that in a person’s lifetime they should at least take some interests the classics of our history. It just seems silly to think otherwise, but maybe that is just me. So I will say it now, in case you haven’t gotten the hint, go read a damn classic!
I am still struggling on if I should list people like Tom Wolfe, Hunter S. Thompson, Charles Bukowski, and Kurt Vonnegut. They are some of my favorite writers of all time. I don’t know that I could have a list without them, but I also feel like there is no life in which you haven’t read at least one of these amazing people. I’ve gotten the sudden urge to add Silvia Plath and Maya Angelou to that list, so I am doing it now. I would never want to live a life without these women either. I just wouldn’t.
So I guess what this leaves me with is a list of contemporary authors to read? That feels accurate, but a lot harder than I intended for this to be. You see, I don’t read a lot of contemporary authors, not currently anyway. If you ever want a list of some of my favorites, please feel free to ask, I’m always happy to talk about books. I guess lets get back to the task at hand, contemporary authors I think you should read, or at least know about.
* Patrick Duncan- currently reading his Dracula vs. Hitler and it is quite nice. Southern Gothic style historical Fiction.
* Nalini Singh- Fantasy Romance style books, usually long series.
* David Mitchell- Supernatural
* Ernest Cline- SciFi
* Jana Oliver – Young Adult Fantasy/Romance
* Julia Elliot- Southern Gothic SciFi
* Christopher Moore- Comedic Fiction
* Sarah Kay – Spoken Word Poet

So those might not be a lot to start with, but like I said, contemporary isn’t really something I’m good at currently. I also did try to avoid any of the bigger named authors that I could have probably filled this list with (George RR Martin, Gillian Flynn, etc). This is what you get. Do you have any suggestions for me? I love to hear about new books or authors.